This is my life

Drifting

2008-10-31T07:10:43Z

Seriously. What the hell happened? This is so strange. Love. Laughter. Wisdom. Knowledge. Music. Friendship. Money. I've learned so much about myself in a little over a year. More than I'd learned in 5 years before that. I feel like... I know so clearly what I want. I think I've felt like this before. Do I really know what I want? Does anyone ever? Is that what life is, always pursuing that something, that ever changing and growing ideal? I think there is always more to be had, more to be learned, more to be done. So in that sense, one can never be truly content. At least, I don't know that I could. I want to go to the moon. It's entirely possible I might in my lifetime. How incredible it would be to leave this planet. To leave the place where every bit of our history has happened. I'd go to the moon. I'd go to Mars if I could.

Summer

2007-07-24T03:01:51Z

Crazy, over a year since I posted anything here. Why the hell not? I just got back from deployment like 2 weeks ago. I get out of the navy in less than a month, and then Anna and I will head back to Marquette. I don't wanna treat it like we're starting anything over again, but it kinda feels that way... I guess this will be more of a continuation of my crazy life. I'm looking forward to everything though. It should be fun if nothing else.

diet pepsi goes flat REALLY fast

2006-05-30T00:58:21Z

It's pretty hot in the apartment... I'm going underway for about a month on thursday, so you probly wont hear from me until I get back unless I e-mail you. Life is good right now. I hope it stays this way. What a nice night...

Summer

2006-05-29T16:00:13Z

Well summer is officially here. The weather is hot and hazy, the forest is all lush and tropical, and we kicked it off by going to the beach and getting burned, then going to a BBQ and drinking around the fire all night. Not bad. There are a couple cookouts to hit up today as well. I only wish I wasn't going to be underway for the better part of the summer... like always. Hope everyone had a great weekend, I know I did.

Finally!

2006-05-25T02:55:33Z

So, I finally got around to fixing my computer. All it really took was re-installing windows, and I didn't even lose any files. Thankfully. Now I have to reconfigure everything to make it like it used to be... anyway, one less thing to worry about now. Next is the car...

10 days!

2006-04-16T00:48:51Z

Woohoo! 10 days until my birthday! I can't believe I'm going to be 22. Wow. Well, summer feels like it's just around the corner. We've been using that grill quite a bit. It's great. Had a bunch of people over last night for meat. And then bowling, and then my car was misbehaving. It's so nice to have the weekend off. I can't wait until it gets green and warm around here. I love summer. I love being outside at night during summer time, especially downtown, with the lights and cars. I love gas stations on summer nights for some reason. The flourescent lights, the smell, the bugs... I dont know, maybe it just brings back good memories or something. But I love summer.

april showers...

2006-04-08T19:47:16Z

It's a miserable day, as far as the weather goes. But everything else is cool. I'm glad I'm alone right now, I needed some time to myself. I like being able to be alone and get my thoughts together, play guitar, whatever. I should take a shower. I probably will.

more stuff

2006-02-23T03:32:50Z

You Are 60% Abnormal

You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul.

You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

You Are Wind

Strong and overpowering
A force to be reckoned with, no one dares cross you
You have the power to change everything around you

You are best known for: your wrath

Your dominant state: commanding

What Type of Weather Are You?

You Are 64% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care.
Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

How Evil Are You?

Your Love Element Is Fire

In love, you are a true listener and totally present.
For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt.

You attract others with your joy and passion.
Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate.

Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life.
And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal.

You connect best with: Wood

Avoid: Water

You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly

What Element Is Your Love?

You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally.
You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go.
Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control.
Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow.

You are a realist when it comes to luck.
You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.
You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But you do your best to try to make your own luck.

You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.
You realize that working the system does get you further.
You know who to defer to and who to control.
When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

What Temperment Are You?

I know, another illegitemate post...

2006-02-11T00:12:45Z

Humphrey Bogart
You scored 30% Tough, 14% Roguish, 33% Friendly, and 23% Charming!

You're the original man of honor, rough and tough but willing to stick your neck out when you need to, despite what you might say to the contrary. You're a complex character full of spit and vinegar, but with a soft heart and a tender streak that you try to hide. There's usually a complicated dame in the picture, someone who sees the real you behind all the tough talk and can dish it out as well as you can. You're not easy to get next to, but when you find the right partner, you're caring and loyal to a fault. A big fault. But you take it on the chin and move on, nursing your pain inside and maintaining your armor...until the next dame walks in. Or possibly the same dame, and of all the gin joints in all the world, it had to be yours. Co-stars include Ingrid Bergman and Lauren Bacall, hot chicks with problems.

Find out what kind of classic dame you'd make by taking the Classic Dames Test.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 61% on Tough

You scored higher than 46% on Roguish

You scored higher than 52% on Friendly

You scored higher than 38% on Charming

Link: The Classic Leading Man Test written by gidgetgoes on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

I hope I wasn't just second best

2006-02-04T16:29:10Z

Joan moved away to Colorado
Said she found God and a boyfriend as well
One that wont hit her or make her feel shallow
There's a lot to learn about Joan

Before I moved in Joan had a fling with the landlord
So she got to stay here for free
And I'm not a genius but I figured out
There's a lot to learn from Joan

And after all this time, you were waiting on the ride
To stop at the place where they slowly misplaced your life...
Go get it right

I went to the closet to get dressed for work
When I spotted a box I had not seen before
With all kinds of letters that never got sent to a guy in Colorado since 1994
And I know it's wrong
But I sat and opened in no certain order
A letter or two she talked about blisters and bruises of anger
And she bought a handgun to learn how to shoot
And the last letter said that she had to get out
But I couldn't make out the rest of the note
From the blood stains all over the page of the letters
There's a lot to learn
And there's a lot I learned about Joan

And after all this time, you were waiting on the ride
To stop at the place where you slowly misplaced your life
Oh and after all this time, you were waiting on the ride
To stop at the place where they slowly misplaced your life...
Go get it right
Go get it right
Go get it right
Go get it right

SEX Baby

2006-02-03T22:39:45Z

Hot Tamale
You have an intellectual sexiness factor of 66!

You're hot! You've read a lot. You've done a lot, and there's a lot you'd like to try in the future. You've got a sharp, sexy mind, and few inhibitions to restrain you from exploring all the pleasure you can get. You have few hang-ups, and there's not much you don't know about sex. You're open-minded and able to enjoy things that would make a lesser person squeamish. You're an exceptional treat as a lover, appreciated greatly by those who know the differnce. You were probably bored with a few of the people you've been with in your past, feeling like you had to drag them along with you in the sexual adventures you want to have, and probably dumping them for the same reason. It takes a lot to stimulate you; you realize it's not just about bumping uglies. In the end there's gotta be a lot more to it. Still, there is always room for improvement. Before you can graduate into a true sexual genius, there are a few things you've got to learn, to explore, to think through, talk through, and fuck through. A good place to start is in taking a look at the few things you're still a little hesitant to try. Break down you're last few barriers and discover the outer sexual frontiers, and you'll become a master.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 26% on sexiness

Link: The Intellectual Sexiness Test written by dr_eros on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Happy birthday

2006-02-02T21:26:37Z

Happy Birthday Tim, and thanks to you and Carol for helping Anna and I find the chinese resaurant menu. You know what I'm talking about. :) Today is a good day, and this month should be a good month. Just gotta stay focused...

tired...

2006-01-26T06:10:32Z

The Liberated Lover
63% partner focus, 57% aggressiveness, 65% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Liberated Lover.

The Liberated Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and forms the kind of free-thinking, sexually-exciting, self-confident lover that society once condemned but that a liberal-mind cherishes and exults. The Liberated Lover is a treasure to find, though it can sometimes be difficult to do so because they are often already engaged in relationships or are in high-demand if "in the market."

In terms of physical love, the Liberated Lover is possibly the most thrilling and demanding of all, with the one potential drawback being that it is possible to feel 'overmatched' at times by their prowess and selfless giving. Given trust and understanding, and the right lover, the Liberated Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Exotic Lover (most of all) or the Carnal Lover, or the Suave Lover.

Congratulations!

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following:

Nerds, Geeks & Dorks

Professional Wrestling

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

America/Politics

Thanks Again! -- THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 65% on partner focus

You scored higher than 56% on aggressiveness

You scored higher than 66% on adventurousness

Link: The Lover Style Profile Test written by donathos on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

And to continue my LJ update/Atreyu kick...

2006-01-22T14:41:14Z

In this perfection I lament her beauty
Her voice a sour note in this bitter serenade

And all these words I could have would have should have said
Ring out like gunshots across long lost days
If that wasn't love then what the fuck was I thinking?
I would bear my soul just to bask in your grace
And your beauty, your strength inspires all of my days
I would carry any load just to bear your cross for a day

In this perfection I lament her beauty
Her voice a sour note in this bitter serenade

Your love fills me up when the blood in my body's drained
And your strength is my backbone when I feel every bone break

I'm built for pain I swore to let no one in and there you where a vision a beauty

It takes my breath away you took my breath away
And it takes my breath away how you took my
Breath away

How could I know that you would take my breath away? And
How could I know one kiss would change everything?

Your love fills me up when the blood in my body's drained
And your strength is my backbone when I feel every bone break
Your love fills me up when the blood in my body's drained
And your strength is my backbone when I feel every bone break

watch how your answers change...

2006-01-22T14:35:39Z

So after taking the Humor test, I deceided to take the OKcupid dating/relationship personality test again, just to see if it would turn out different. I guess my answers have changed from last time, and no, i did not answer differently on purpose. Weird.

The Vapor Trail
Random Brutal Love Master (RBLMm)

Here today, gone today. You are The Vapor Trail. Are you in a relationship now?

Your exact opposite:
The Backrubber

Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer

What about now?

Vapor Trails can be highly charismatic people--unpredictable, confident, and magnetic. You're experienced. You know how to handle yourself in a relationship, and many people appreciate that. Many people, all in a row.

You've had your share of blissful beginnings, to be sure. But things almost never turn out how you'd like, do they? The problem is you're never happy with someone for an extended period of time. Relate to the following:

Vapor Trails especially need a girl who will laugh at their jokes. They're also the most likely male type to be haunted by serious regret.

FACT: A few of your exes, the ones you were best to, will always love you. Nice going.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Intern, The Maid of Honor

CONSIDER: The Sudden Departure

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: eekhouse

this actually makes a lot more sense...

but seriously folks...

2006-01-22T14:19:46Z

the Cutting Edge

(52% dark, 57% spontaneous, 21% vulgar)

your humor style:
CLEAN | SPONTANEOUS | DARK

Your humor's mostly innocent and off-the-cuff, but somehow there's something slightly menacing about you. Part of your humor is making people a little uncomfortable, even if the things you say aren't themselves confrontational. You probably have a very dry delivery, or are seriously over-the-top.

Your type is the most likely to appreciate a good insult and/or broken bone and/or very very fat person dancing.

PEOPLE LIKE YOU: David Letterman - John Belushi

The 3-Variable Funny Test!
- it rules -

If you're interested, try my latest: The Terrorism Test

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 51% on darkness

You scored higher than 81% on spontaneity

You scored higher than 12% on vulgarity

Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

trust me

2006-01-15T00:14:10Z

I wish you would step back
From that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say put the past away
I wish you would step back
From that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
Well he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they're doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I wish you would step back from
That ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
I would understand, I would understand
I would understand, I would understand
Can you put the past away

uhhhh....

2006-01-13T19:24:38Z

I hate my job. There, i got that one out of the way. One problem I have is that I get angry, and I'm nasty to everyone, Even good friends who are trying to help me with whatever I am angry about. Then I end up snapping at them and they get mad at me and then I feel bad. This happens a lot. I guess I should work on that. I'll just yell at the people I dont like. Anyway, things are quite uncertain at this point, concerning many things. Just gotta let it ride and hope for the best I guess...

Sundays are best

2006-01-08T15:50:46Z

My Favorite day again. I want to talk to all of my friends. I miss you guys. It was good to see you all at home this past holiday season. I miss Marquette, but moreso because of the people I know from there, how we learned and grew together. How we laughed and cried and lied and lived... But I'm happy now. I'm happy. I have to thank my mom for sending our waffle iron back here with me. I am eating belgian waffles with strawberries and whipped cream right now! MMM. SO GOOOOOD.

Too much... Must purge....

2006-01-06T02:47:23Z

The past is a demon. The past is a demon. I fight it day by day by day. Not just mine, mind YOU. I fight it day by day by day. Some days it's a battle easily won. Other days I fall with a sword in my side, twisting, burning, bleeding... It makes my stomach churn, with rage and sadness and regret and jealousy... This demon if not kept at bay, will certainly destroy what I value most. The PRESENT. I fight it day by day by day. Hoping it will soon fade, and from time to sweet time, it does so, but manages to break free once again, and attempts to tear its way out of my heart. Life is like a box of chocolates... you never know what you're going to get. And sometimes, you get that one you hate, a sour, jagged piece, that you wish you'd never ventured to taste, but your curiosity got the best of you, and now you want to spit it out... but you cant. You can chew it and chew it and chew it, and let the bitterness sink in and make you sick, or you can swallow hard and move on to the sweeter things. Move on to the sweeter things... and hope they dont run out. Hope they are real. I fight, day by blistering day.

Home sweet Home

2005-12-29T08:32:03Z

I used to love coming home. Right now I just want to be gone. There are so many memories... maybe too many... maybe too many that aren't just memories. I love this place. I love the people. I haven't been thinking about things lately, trying to believe they're not real... I know they are though. I guess knowing isn't enough to let me lose control though. I dont know what it will take; or maybe I've just become numb. It's hard to describe how I feel right now, or maybe I just dont want anyone to know how I feel... I dont think I really know how I feel... I'm in love more than I thought ever possible... I'm furious, but it's buried deep inside my heart... I'm thankful for everything I have... I'm regretful about countless things, some recent and some from the past...
I should get up at a decent hour tomarrow and get some stuff done. I really need to. I dont like blogging. Maybe other people dont hold anything back but I am always selective about what I put in my blogs. Either because I think something might give people the wrong idea about me or I dont think people or certain people should know. So who else does that? Does that make me manipulative? Does it mean I'm insecure? I guess everyone is to a point. Well since I've shared that with everyone...
I should go to bed.

Happy Holidays

2005-12-16T22:12:41Z

Well, tonight is the night of the legendary USS Augusta Christmas Party. I'm Excited. However, I have to behave, for several reasons, the main one being that I have to get up tomarrow morning and begin the drive home. I'm gonna stop in AA and stay the night with Anna, then her and I will be heading to Mqt on sunday. Should be fun!!! I'm really excited to be home for the holidays and to see all my family and friends, and we're going to Chicago for a few days to see a Redwings Game. I've never been to a pro hockey game so I'm pumped. Plus the Wings are gonna school the blackhawks. I haven't been to chicago since I graduated boot camp. Over 3 years ago. Man time flies. Anyway. tty'all later.

I'm older than I feel...

2005-12-09T21:08:55Z

You Are 28 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Dinner

2005-11-30T00:16:40Z

I used to clean my barracks room after a bad day at work to relieve stress. Kinda strange, but it worked really well. I guess having the clean room made me happy and made me feel better. Now that I have an actual kitchen, I can cook all the time, so I do that as well as cleaning after a bad day at work. I just made myself Italian sausages with onions and peppers, and Tacquitos. Yum. I feel better already. The other day I looked EVERYWHERE for fake mistletoe, so I could hang a couple around the place. Not that I need it to get a kiss but I thought it would be fun in light of the holiday season. So like I said, I looked everywhere, and NO ONE HAD ANY!!!! WTF! It's almost christmas! The only thing I haven't tried is a florist for some of the real stuff. If I get a chance tomarrow I'll take a look. Tomarrow is going to be a great day. I can hardly wait.

Sunday's are best

2005-11-27T15:36:37Z

It's beautiful out today. I woke up pretty early, considering how late I was up last night, and I feel motivated to do stuff. I hope I can stay that way. It should be a good day. I love having a kitchen to cook in, made breakfast sandwiches for breakfast (obvoiusly) this morning. My favorite. I'm gonna clean my car out today.